After a long roller coaster journey, I'm finally back to writing my blog. Well, I have to say, this six months is a tiring, horrible and pathetic long journey. With all the painful experiences of effort spiralling down the drain, unfairness, prejudice & favoritism as seen from the act of some teachers whom I shall not mention who, I have finally seen the cruelty of life. Never would I have the ability to have the "dare to dream wild" attitude again. The higher the hope, the greater the disappointment.
I could still remember the resolution I've made at the start of the year - since I was given this chance (the dumb DSA thingy of course), and since I have chosen this path, I should do it well-. And I did try my utmost to fulfill this goal. Well, sadly, I have only come to realise hard work is never enough. Putting hardwork aside, there are many more elements that have to be fulfilled before reaching this goal. Those include luck, and worst of all, favoritism. That is something that disgusts me the most. Unfortunately, it has a major role to play in this whole thing.
The world is definitely much more complicated than what we think. I've realised more of them after entering college. Farewell to the innocent, naive thoughts. Those are just silly illusions that will bring you to nowhere. Someone has asked be before if I'm really happy in TJC, or in chamber. I replied with a smile, though inwardly, my heart was numb and cold, after being stabbed billions of times. The smile meant nothing.
Definitely, I have had many great moments in TJC. The frens that I've made are great people. The sweet and fun stuffs we've done will always stay with me. However, those horrible incidents that I've come across with, and the painful decisions I had to make (starting from the giving up of music as my future career), have really left me hurt and wounded.
After all, nothing is fair in this world. I hope I could just have a long, deep sleep that would set my mind peaceful for once. However, running away from reality will not salvage the problem. I find myself neither here nor there.
4th mvmt; The Grand Finale
1:24 AM
Forte
*Name: Guyue *Christian name: Cheryl *I'm a christian, & i LOVE MUSIC! *I aim high *in order to do my best. *Im friendly, & love to smile *although I look stern when serious. *Everyone knows I'm a *BIG BLUR QUEEN *but with a mature mindset (Hahs that's what my frens say) *I'm very sensitive in nature *I do treasure all my frens around me *because each and every one of them is like a gift from God. *After exams, i'll lyk to craze with my frens! *Because you only get to live once!
Dolce
*MUSIC
*PLAYING THE PIANO & VIOLIN *BALLET *MY DEAREST & CLOSET FRENS *MY LOVING PARENTS *MY BEETHOVEN DOG THAT I HUG EVERY NIGHT *PREPARING & ATTENDING CONCERTS *FREDERIC CHOPIN *SHOPPING
Crescendo
~Enjoy the most of my life after O level
~Improve on my ballet steps.
~Get distinction for my piano diploma exam. ~& Get distinction for my violin Grade 8 exam too. ~Get desirable results for O level ~Go to esplanade more often! ~Read Princess Diaries ninth edition ~Serve God more devotely ~Stay happy in Temasek JC nxt year ~Hope my close frens can get into TJC with me ~& I really hope my asthma would heal one day! ~Get more frens to watch Talento VI TO BE CONTINUED... WOW! I must be greedy to have so many wishes
