Thursday, January 22, 2009
I'm really so tried of trying so hard... I've worked so hard to obtain good results, but ended up not being able to get into the JC i want. I've practiced so hard for my music, but ended not not meeting my expectations and my sight reading is still horrendous. I've tried so hard to be a great child to my parents, but still, in their hearts, I'm nothing but a self-centered kid. In the pri sch days, my results were juz average, but I know nothing about stress. My parents, were immensely dissatisfied with mt performance in sch. Now, my results has shot up to being the 7th in level in NCHS, but I myself had witnessed how much damage stress can do to me myself, but at the same time, I couldn't avoid the pressure. And again, my parents said to me, " So what if your results are good? You are such a self-centered spoilt kid! "
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These harsh words were firmly imprinted on my mind. I have tried so hard to make them happy! Never would they know how much effort I've put in. Still, in their heart of hearts, I'm juz a SELF-CENTERED kid!
Sometimes I juz wonder why must we humans try so hard. After all, we juz live on earth for such a short period of time. Not many of us can be like Albert Einstein, Edison or Mozart, who are geniuses and can do wonders to the world.
I'm juz so sick and tired of trying so hard. Perhaps it would be much better to give up everything, including this meaningless life of mine... At least, sleeping in peace would be so much better than working so hard but ending up having all the effort spiralling down the drain....
4th mvmt; The Grand Finale
12:15 PM
